Monday, July 13, 2009

Alright,

so here is the deal. I can't shut up. My brain keeps going and going, and I can't help that I enjoy thinking, and then the talking just happens. It's like thinking out my mouth. "Dynamic." In my case, as one of my favorite people on earth, and best of friends, just reminded me, that translates to "your loud, and you talk to much." A dose of reality is always good. He's absolutely right, that just about sums me up. I'm a loud monkey that likes the company of other monkeys. That's why I need to become either a preacher or a stand-up comedian (as if there is a difference), because I just need to get this shit off my chest. It's either about my stupid little story, or about what needs to change in the world, what's wrong with the world blah blah blah. It's just the way I'm wired. So if I can just talk for my job, then I won't need to jabber to the people I care about. The truth is there is nothing really to say. But I just keep saying it. People on the whole just don't care. They don't want to hear it. And that's understandable. I don't want to hear it either.

We're just here. I can't shut up. Iran is developing nuclear weapons. Some things in life you just have to accept as being the way they are. Thanks to all those who listen to my jabberings. I spent years sitting back and talking to a psychiatrist. I think it became a habit. I seem to treat everyone across from me like a psychiatrist. I don't have many secrets. I'm kinda like that clawed open chested depiction of Hanuman. Anyhoo. That's just me. The Reverend idiot, aspiring to be a better man. Some of us are called to play the fool. Is there even any point trying to be different than what comes naturally?

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