What on earth have I been talking about all this time? I’m tempted just to delete this whole mess of ranting madness and start over. Trying to rewrite the steps for people who don’t want to be sober? That’s really fresh Scotty, you stupid ass. I get it. I’m just starting to get it. I’m just another selfish writer, trying to get something off my chest. It’s like one big therapy session. I just vent. Blah blah blah. I’ll try and do better. I think I’m just writing because my muse keeps ignoring me. I’m sorry for writing so much negative stuff over the years. I’m a frustrated guy. I’m just trying to come to terms with this reality, and it’s driving me crazy. I may be well over the edge, and many of you may already know it. I hope I can hold it together long enough to figure things out. I feel like I may be getting there. Insanity lurks at every corner in this room of self-realization. This is a dangerous game. I hope somebody reads this drivel. I love you.

The Goose.

13th step

Sex with newcomer.

6 through 12

Go to some meetings, get taken by the dogma, make things right in your life, get over the dogma.

5th Step

Talk Story.

4th Step

Wait a minute. Did I do something wrong? Gotta make the list.

3rd step

What is Humility Chuck? Can I please buy a vowel?

2nd Step

When the rooster says wake up, WAKE UP!

1st. Step

Admit that we actually have no clue what is really going on, just a bunch of stories human beings have told themselves to explain reality.

I get it. I get it.

Alright. I get it. You’ve heard it all before. The same old story. The same old story. I’m in love with Jenn. I love the Grauer. Blah blah blah. My family has forsaken me blah blah blah. What a sob story. Why am I the luckiest guy in the world? Why do I have the best family in the world? They always did right by me. I’m an Aquarius. Codename Yellowfish, Dignan, I am the Rooster, I am the Eggman. Come in Major Tom. Earth to Major Tom. Groundhog Control is calling. There’s nothing I can do. Major Tom. Where is my lionheart? Where is the truth? I certainly have no idea what I’m talking about. I’m just a crazy man some Yellow Naropa Shaman hit with a canoe. If he hadn’t given me the crow drug I might not be alive today. It takes a long time to grow up. I’m only 28. Leave me alone and let me follow Mya. I have no idea what I’m talking about. Do not listen to me. Please leave me alone in my wilderness. I just want to be alone YemaiYA! Leave me with my father in the wilderness. Do not listen to me. I am disappearing. Listen to your leaders they are really smart people and know exactly what they are doing. The Real Lama. The King. Jesco. Elvis. Mr. Marley. We got to have Kaya now. Give me Wine. I’m a drunken Wino. I’m nobody. I have no idea what I’m talking about. I have the Curse of Lono. Do you ever feel like you are Channeling Hunter S. Thompson? Or Dickens or the Spearchucker? Or maybe my Grandmother. The TUTU Queen. Is it me, or do I sound Crazy? See you in Hawaii. Aloha. Enter the Dragon. Don't listen to me. Listen to Lee Scratch Perry, or Israel Vibration, or Culture. That where I get my material. Listen to them. I'm tired of talking. I can't stop talking. I just wish I was the computer. But they are busy deprogramming the Satan Computer. We all have a claw. Jesse is three people. He is Jesse, he is Jesco, and he is Elvis. Jesco is King. Remember that. King of the people. Be the Dancing Outlaw. Live it. I'm just a fun guy to party with. I don't take myself as seriously as you people think. When i'm alone I just laugh at the cosmic joke when I'm not crying about how asleep everybody is. Your Shepherds are leading you astray. We are all just reflections of each other aren't we? Those of us that know how to read between the lines. It's the oldest story in the book. We all have a the hammer and the cup. The Chalice and the Blade. Two parts of the same thing, right? Existing in the Holy Trinity. Listen to Culture and fly away home. Cockadoodledoo from your mumbling madman of a friend. I just want to hang out on a farm with animals. I molest goats. I talk too fast and barely sleep. I wake with the cock mr. Loco Moco. This is Rainbow Country. I don't want to leave. It's dirty, full of mosquitos, in the middle of the jungle, you probably won't like it here. I just got woken up at 1 AM by a mad rooster who told me to drive to Puako to get a wireless signal and write this for you. Has the curse been lifted? It may already be 2012. Does anyone have a match?

what?

We all live in the cage, and until we get our claws out, we won’t get out. We are human creators. We are who we tell ourselves we are. And we are always a we, because we are One. The idea of the individual is a lie in terms of spirituality, which we cannot get away from because it is our nature, but separation from the truth has made our conscious lower selves feel separate so that we will mate with our opposite, that which is another part of ourselves. This is just the Zen of nature. We are all still connected in a higher realm. We are all human down here. Part of the same blanket, but living the human drama, so that we can do our jobs. People have done a great job, even in their wars, and in their inventions we have accomplished a lot, even amidst our idiocy. We have been marvelous creators. We are living at the apex of civilization, but as always it is time for us to evolve. We have to choose our reality. We are not choosing the one which is most beneficial to all our brothers and sisters here on earth. It is also not the best one for our mother the earth, and our father the Sun gets pissed when we don’t take care of his lover the earth, this sweet little loving planet which spins around him. The holy spirit is Zen, Om, mother energy, it’s just the infinite amniotic fluid of space, dark matter, deep love and perfection. That is the infinite possibility pool.

Evolution

The holy ghost is mother

what it is

What are we doing here? Nothing more than redefining language, culture, living at the apex of evolution, isn’t it time for us to evolve? So what do we do? First we accept that we are no better than anyone else. We are all relatives. We all came out of Africa, where we started standing on our own two feet millions of years ago. We are one human race. We are all connected to the most high. We all depend on the dance of this galaxy to keep us alive. We’re just in orbit around the sun, getting the seed of light, and we live. We have so much to be grateful for. This is not a cruel world. Death is not something to fear. Death is the great sacrifice, it is how we continue to live. Life feeds on death, the dance of darkness and light, both parts of the same thing. Yin and Yang. Male and female, equal parts of the same thing. We are made for each other, gloriously fitting parts of One. Seed and Womb. Woman, mother, where we come from. Mother just as holy as Father. Mother Earth just as Holy as the Sun in Heaven. What is Heaven? Space. The infinite possibility pool. The amniotic fluid of the universe, the soup from which we emerged. The miracle of infinite possibility which gave us the gift of light and matter. Welcome to Mindhead, the Ultranet, the superconsciousness of which we are all a part. It’s time for us to rocket into the fourth dimension. Let’s put an end to the lie of separation and begin to build Zion. Heaven on Earth for our people. Iwatchupa. Wetaha.

Just cruising in Hawaii.

All my love,
The Goose Wrangler

enough with the yellow clothes you lying clawhorse

Will Hillary please stop wearing yellow! Yellow is the color of truth, beauty, and light, but there is very little of any of those coming from this lying lady. This woman is so dangerous it’s crazy. How dare she say that she is any more qualified than Barack Obama to run this criminal Nation. I’m not sure that even with God at the helm of this broken ship it could be steered away from its scary future, but one thing is sure, at least Obama has a chance of winning a general election where she does not. Yesterday she spoke to an audience with a group of generals behind her, who were there to show their support for her. This makes me even more wary. Last time she was in the White House, as the guest of her philandering husband, we should not forget that they bombed a civilian city in Europe for more than two months straight. She says that her former experience makes her more qualified to run this country. Does this make sense? On some level maybe it does. Let’s explore. This is America, but we are a fallacy of America. This is not really America, just a hollow shell of a brand name with a heart of selfishness and greed. We were never designed to be a superpower. Our founding fathers did not imagine us having a standing army. We became independent because our people did not feel like paying for a British Empire that was not giving us anything in return for the taxes we were paying. Our founders did not want to pay a corporatocracy, based in London, which was leaching the life and freedom from every “developing market” they visited with their “progress.” Instead of the freedom our founders fought for, we ended up with a London in Washington D.C. This is a crime against the true America. Washington, and the big money interests which own it, clearly have a liking for Hillary. More than anything, I believe it is because she doesn’t have a chance of winning the White House against John McCain, but even if she did win, is there something about her which gives them hope? Could it be that she has proved herself at staying on board a rotten ship and sailing it on at the expense of what is right? She stuck with her lying, deceiving, rotten husband. Maybe the rotten people out there know that she will stick by them if she makes it all the way to the White House. We can’t let that happen. I’m not sure that Obama can even begin to fix our terrible problems, but at least he believes in the Constitution. He used to teach it. Would he dismantle our military like a true patriot would? Would he set about directly trying to make amends to all the countries we have harmed over the years with our policies of greed? Will he immediately institute a policy of nuclear disarmament to set an example for all the other country’s we are bossing around in hypocrisy? I doubt it. And so by becoming our next president, which I pray he will, he will also take control of a criminal ship, and thereby cement his own criminality in the annals of those who will come to judge us. But if he can only give us hope, as he has already done, then his rise will be his own sacrifice to us, and maybe he will become enlightened and begin to fight the pervasive sickness of greed and pride that is rife in the leadership of this now greedy and prideful country. Let’s just hope he makes it that far. As for Hillary, she is like America, the opposite of what it tells us it is. She is not a true liberal. She is just another monocratic Washington D.C. insider, in the pockets of the military industrial complex and other big money corporations. She wears yellow, which is the color of peace and enlightenment, but if she had brains enough to be a good president, she would have brains enough to know that she is the worst possible candidate for her party. If she wants to see a democrat in the White House come 2009, then she would be wise to take a vacation, and wear her yellow somewhere other than on the campaign trail.

off off and away

Well, it's a brand new show today, and I'm at the Aspen Airport. Somebody last night was telling me how uncool Aspen has become, and that this website called fuckaspen.com is really catcing on. Aspen is pretty damn uncool, except in winter. I can admit that. But it is still my favorite place on earth, and we all just have to face the fact that living in this mountain paradise means being subjected to an extremely high concentration of utterly ignorant greedheads, suck-leaches, social climbers, star-sluts, douche bags, and the occasional clawrag. But the skiing is great, and it's holy land. Seriously. You people should take care. This is native land. These are the spiritual grounds of the Ute Indians, and their spirits are everywhere. Show some respect. Aspen is just a name. This is not Aspen, just like this Country is not America. Aspen is more than just Fat City USA. Listen to the Elk. Listen to the Fox. Listen to the Crow. Slow down. See you in Hawaii.

the future of openmindchuch.com

So this church of the open mind thing is pretty simple and it’s damn fun. I can almost guarantee that it will increase your frequency and expand your mind. That’s really the whole point. Expansion into our true selves. Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path. What path? No path. Just an open mind. We are only the human race. There are no requirements. All the enlightenment has been written by the genius of mankind for thousands of years. It’s everywhere you look, buried beneath the surface of what has been hiding it from us. The lie. The lie that we are separate from God. The lie that we are fallen. The lie that this is not still the Garden of Eden, that this is not still heaven we are living on. Heaven and Hell are right here on earth, not up in the sky somewhere. We invent our existence, because we are the conscious creators. Simple. Welcome to Mindhead. The church of the open mind. We are small, we live here. The sun and the earth, the perfect symmetry of the universe and our little galaxy, all spinning perfectly so that we get life every day, in the form of light. It’s a miracle. We are at the mercy of the Universe. We live only by the miracle of life. Birth and death, decay and resurrection. We are nature. We just happen to think about it. That’s why animals love us so much. Because we have the weight of existence on our minds. We think, therefore we are confused. In stillness, action. In action, stillness. Stop. It’s not what we’ve been taught. Here we are. We don’t understand everything, and we never will. We just keep expanding and evolving. Let’s go with it. It’s the best trip for a human being on earth. It’s all true if we say it is. We are the deciders. What beliefs and what actions will be most beneficial to all life on earth? That should be our foremost concern. Then we act. Then we sow, then we reap. Spread the message of light, love, hope, faith, beauty, grace, joy, wonder, truth and peace. We are the gardeners. We play a roll in this game of life like all the rest of matter, the rock, the cockroach, gravity, water, dirt, fire, the ant, tree, and lion. We have to decide when we want to hit the delete button on this foolishness we’ve been taught. We’ve been taught a lot of bad ideas. The idea of sin is a lie. There just is. Sin is just the fear of decay. Death is necessary for life. Each of us in our death is a sacrifice to life. We should be happy in our demise. We are here to care for life and to pass the garden on to future life. It is our job to tend this garden of Eden, the earth. Mother earth and father sun give us life. Their dance and endless love for each other is the magic that needs no greater god. We are reflections of that perfection. We are the top of the evolutionary chain here on earth. We are the Ubermensch. Consciousness evolved on this sun soaked earth, just as we did. We’ve never been further along than we are now. Every day is another potential step away from Hell, and toward Heaven. Hello human creators out there! We are making things the way they are. We have been serving the wrong master. We have been serving delusion, distraction, selfishness, greed, and separation. We have not been serving our master. We have been ignoring our higher self, the superconsciousness of which we are all a part: the Ultranet. We are at the doorway of the day we have never experienced before. It is time for the evolution of the human mind. Simple. Welcome to world of angelegenheit. You’re it.

The faster it gets hard, the better it gets.

Coming Along?

Good evening ladies and gentlemen. It's been busy times lately. Very busy. I've been lost in a deep sleep of work. In the context of my life, being a sort of regular, hardworking guy starting a little business, doesn't really make a ton of sense. But then on another level it does.

A little hard working Greek sperm engaged with a rich little egg, and here I am, far far away from the little island I started out on. But who am I really? Spirit in body? It's difficult to say. The way of the spirit is certainly broad and spacious. It's expanding. It's everywhere.

A pretty wise guy once said that the most powerful force in the world is an idea whose time has come. I think awareness is coming, and lately it seems to be wearing yellow. A new revolution in your Mindhead. It's not really more complicated than a superconsciousness of which we are all a part. Simple.

Up here in the land of the Most High, it's a lot brighter. This amazing little adventure, this broad domain of potentiality, is just a blink away. It's only a matter of manifestation now. It's each of our own little choose your own adventure story, but there is one story that we all want, and until we all choose it, none of us will have it. Will we choose the bright one now that our time has come? Ubermensch?!!

Come join the yellow revolution. It's in your Mindhead.

State of the UNiun

I didn't really feel like listening to Bush's State of the Union speech, so I figured I'd just give it to us all myself.

All is well here captain.

Nothing to worry about at all.

Economy? Check.

Nuclear Weapons? Check.

Privatized racket on about everything, even shitty healthcare? Check.

Roger Airforce One. Come in. I'm wearing my flight suit. I've got my bible in the glove compartment and a whole shit load of Cocaine coming my way from Columbia, cause the Apocalypse is coming motherfucker. Dicky Cheney told me last night over S&M, and i'm going out in style. Little Baby Bush style!! YEEFUCKING HAW from your sneaky, greedy, fucking asshole of a president. Fuck you little people, it doesn't even matter what color you are anymore, you just ain't us, so you get fucked.

How do you like this 150 billion dollar stimulus package I'm about to shove up your ass? We're going to cut the corporate tax rate and probably put some more Coca-cola machines in our little greedhead laboratories; I mean schools. How does that feel America?

One more year to deliver the Apocalypse motherfuckers, while i'm still up here flying this fun little spaceship with my pathetic patriarchal god.

State of the Union, Hah. Don't make me laugh. I laugh like a monkey.

Wisdom from Zarathustra

In the mountains the shortest way is from peak to peak, but for that route thou must have long legs. Proverbs should be peaks, and those spoken to should be big and tall.
The atmosphere rare and pure, danger near and the spirit full of joyful wickedness: thus are things well matched.
I want to have goblins about me, for I am courageous. The courage which scareth away ghosts, createth for itself goblins--it wanteth to laugh.
I no longer feel in common with you; the very cloud which I see beneath me, the blackness and heaviness at which I laugh--that is your thundercloud.
Ye look aloft when ye long for exaltation; and I downward because I am exalted.
Who among you can at the same time laugh and be exalted?
He who climbeth on the highest mountains, laugheth at all tragic plays and tragic realities.
Courageous, unconcerned, scornful, coercive--so wisdom wisheth us; she is a woman, and ever loveth only a warrior.
Ye tell me, "Life is hard to bear." But for what purpose should ye have your pride in the morning and your resignation in the evening?
Life is hard to bear: but do not affect to be so delicate! We are all of us fine sumpter asses and assesses.
What have we in common with the rose-bud, which trembleth because a drop of dew hath formed upon it?
It is true we love life; not because we are wont to live, but because we are want to love.
There is always some madness in love. But there is always, also, some method in madness.
And to me also, who appreciate life, the butterflies, and soapbubbles, and whatever is like them amongst us, seem most to enjoy happiness.
To see these light, foolish, pretty, lively little sprites flit about--that moveth Zarathustra to tears and songs.
I should only believe in a God that would know how to dance.
And when I saw my devil, I found him serious, thorough, profound, solemn: he was the spirit of gravity--through him all things fall.
Not by wrath, but by laughter, do we slay. Come, let us slay the spirit of gravity!
I learned to walk; since then have I let myself run. I learned to fly; since then I do not need pushing in order to move from a spot.
Now am I light, now do I fly; now do I see myself under myself. Now there danceth a God in me.--

Thus spake Zarathustra.
[from pg. 24, Thus Spake Zarathustra, Friedrich Nietzsche]

In Today's News

I'd like to welcome all the X-Gamers to Aspen. The news looks bad lately, outside of this little mountain paradise. It's getting beyond terrible. Now that we've lost the potential entertainment that Heath Ledger might have brought us, will we suddenly find ourselves enlightened? I'm sitting in my kitchen den in the mountains. Outside it's cold. Snow is high white in the moonlight.

The world has gone to hell, but you'd be hard pressed to notice skiing Ajax. One need look no further than Google news though. It's chaos in the Middle East. The global markets are tumbling in response to the US financial crisis. Our government is proliferating weapons of mass destruction, we are going to put bombs in space, nobody seems to really care. The citizenry just keeps paying the bills. We just keep greeding along, consuming as we go.

I'm up here on the mountaintop, trying to start a business, getting ready to pay this government more so I can be a "law abiding citizen." I met with a lady from a payroll company today. I got to learn that for every dollar the business pays an employee, both the business and the employee pay a portion to Uncle Sam. Let me make that clearer. I get to pay the government for the privilege of paying an employee, who then has to pay for his right to get paid. Now if we were getting a little something in return, like health care, a law-abiding government, or some damn rights around here, I wouldn't have such a hard time with this suck leech of a federal government; but we are not getting a legitimate product for our money. We are being robbed and criminalized at once. More than fifty percent of the money our government collects from us goes to this military budget. We have a higher percentage of our population incarcerated than any other Nation on earth.

Wake up people, we live in a police state. Just look how armed you are compared with how armed the military and the police are. Who is being protected? Do you really feel safe? Here we are in the richest country on earth, and we don't even have universal health care. Yet we just keep paying these bloody bills for our criminal government. We just keep gorging at this all you can eat buffet, as our souls and our future wastes away? I'm just going to be honest. I fear my government.

Thomas Jefferson warned us. He said: "when the government fears the people, there is liberty. When people fear their government, there is treason."

Ski Conscious out there.