Well today I go to orientation at the Pacific School of Religion at the Graduate Theological Union to begin my 3 year master of divinity program, embarking on a subversive journey that God only knows where will lead. I woke up agitated, already anticipating being at intellectual and spiritual war with my contemporaries. Probably the wrong attitude to begin with for a guy who started the Church of the Open Mind. But I woke up thinking about how religion is so often sacrilege.
If God is perfect and all loving, would he send Satan to test Job? Thinking about this confused and lost old book called the Bible that is followed by so many confused and lost people, I felt lost myself. My school is a hub of Gay and Lesbian Christianity, which itself doesn't make much sense, because even the New Testament has plenty declaring homosexuality somehow morally wrong. I don't believe that to be true, as I'm of the it is what it is opinion; but I do believe in commitment, love, and ideals of purity and truth, (falling short plenty myself to be sure), but if you are attracted to the same sex, then great, God loves you just the same, but anyway, I digress.
To say that God sent Satan is to make Satan part of God, which He is, but only so much as we are part of God, because we Created Satan, not God. We fell from the Garden, we wrote the story, not God. We, creatures of infinite potentiality, got lost, we chose the low road. God is ever present, ever loving, ever true and universal. We are the ones who have limited God, not the other way around. We defined God, like perfect little egotistical imbeciles, when we had even begun by saying that God created everything, including us mortals. But how can mortal define infinite?
They assigned me a young adviser, a professor of art and religion who has only been at the school since the fall. How exactly is she going to advise me through an MDIV program if she has never even been through one? My ego is insulted, but I'm just another mortal, what do I know? How quickly I forget my IT'S GOING TO BE OK rule.
Well, here I go, entering the Matrix. Let's see if I can break it, and crush these limited belief systems and help us escape from all this delusion (of course it's all just in my mind), with my perfect imperfection, street found St. Francis pendant, my two and a half months resistance to a strong taste for wine and herb, my dreams and love for the Jew, my mad love for humanity, and all my own insanity. The lunatic on parade. Welcome to Mindhead, it's a brand new show.
lots of love and aloha,
Goose Wrangler
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