Well Goodness Gracious.

Big crazy night last night. Took Kingston for a walk this morning in Central Park. The no leashes before 9 am rule is the greatest. He actually gets to be a dog a little bit. So i'm tired. I'm hungover. And i'm happy. I'm happy that i'm in New York, and it seems like maybe I had to come all this way to get freedom from this attachment i've had to this idea of a girl I just couldn't get over. I was raised all over the world, never really had a home. Didn't meet my dad till I was 16. Mom left me with grandparents when I was 2, then they sent me to England to be with her maybe a year or so later, then my grandparents took me back when I was like 4. Then I got shipped off to boarding school when I was 12. It's really not a very sad story. It's the story of a family with too many resources financially, and not enough resources emotionally. But hey, these are tales of luxury problems. But anyways. I guess the whole adventure left me with some serious abandonment issues. I could not be with the people I loved, no matter how hard I longed to or tried. Dad in Greece, Mom in England, Grandparents in Aspen till they divorced, and then it was Aspen, Hawaii, Greece, Houston, England. I could never be in enough places at once. But they were all nice places to be. The whole world is a pretty nice place to be. So anyhoo. When I was 18 I fell in love with a girl who lived far away. And it was the same old story. I couldn't be with her, and I guess that just made me want it all the more. I always seem to fall when there is distance involved. But there was just this one girl who never left my heart. Her name was Jenn. She lived in NY. It took me ten years of longing, desperation, and madness, wanting her to somehow change her life or come to me, or whatever odd insanity. And then it dawned on me. It was like a bolt of lightening. Go to New York. So I did. But i'm starting to think that was the destiny, and the girl just got me here. Now that i'm here I don't really even want to see her. I'm here now. It's over. The trip is done. The circle is complete. There are so many wonderful women, and I feel like loving Jenn has taught my heart to love freely, it has expanded my love into the universe. Now i'm ready to give my love again. Now I'm free. I'm gonna go get a burger. Aloha.